Saturday, April 24, 2010

Tears dry on their own

He walks away,
The sun goes down,
He takes the day but I'm grown,
And in your grey, in this blue shade
My tears dry on their own,

I don't understand,
Why do I stress the man,
When there's so many bigger things at hand,
We could a never had it all,
We had to hit a wall,
So this is inevitable withdrawal,
Even if I stop wanting you,
A Perspective pushes true,
I'll be some next man's other woman soon,

How can I play myself again,
I should just be my own best friend,

I wish I could say no regrets,
And no emotional debts,
Cause as we kiss goodbye the sun sets,
So we are history,
Your shadow covers me,
The sky above a blaze that only lovers see

Tears Dry on Their Own - Amy Winehouse

Wednesday, April 21, 2010


Beberapa orang nanya alesannya kenapa gue putus sama si pacar yang ini.

I just simply said, "Sometimes something is not work out the way I want" or "Well, maybe we're really not meant to be"

Because it is really the answer.

Ga ada yang salah. itu yang lebih bikin sakit hati. It will be easier kalo ada yang disalahin.
Tapi emang ga ada yang salah antara aku, dia, jarak, atau waktu.

Mungkin nanti. Mungkin 3 tahun lagi.
Mungkin kita bisa bareng lagi nanti
atau mungkin nggak sama sekali.

One of the bestie nanya, "lo ga perjuangin?"
apa lagi yang harus diperjuangin sih.
buat saya, relationship itu dua orang. kalo salah satunya udah punya mind set sendiri dan nggak sejalan sama saya, buat apa saya paksa ?
buat apa dijalani lagi dengan fondasi, "tapi aku masih sayang sama kamu" ? nggak cukup. suatu saat nanti toh akan bubar juga kalo gitu.

I know he's hurt as bad as I am now.
but I know we'll be fine. as I said before, it takes time.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Skip work

*srooottt !*

huw. asli ya, sakit itu nggak enak sama sekali lho. batuk pilek apalagi. :(
mata beraer, kepala berat. rasanya cuma pengen mlungker di kasur aja...

makan ga enak. nelen ga enak.
ergh !

anyway. Just wondering whether he's okay or not.
I want him to be okay. Because I'm sure I'll be okay.

Still, it takes time.
This is not too hard because he's not around. But next week. I think it will be hard. he's around. and he's not my boyfie.
The mood that I've bulit for next week is hello-yello-boyfie not well-hai, friend..
argh !

killing me. How can I face him and tell him that everything is okay ?

Sunday, April 18, 2010

I'm not okay.


I thought we're okay.
Because I'm okay.
and I thought you too.

I thought I can spell f-o-r-e-v-e-r with you.
Truth is we can't.

I'll be okay. but it takes time.

Saturday, April 17, 2010

weekend @ Orchard.

I bought thisssssssssss !! finally. finally. finally.

I want this watch since more than a year ago. *gila yah !* dan selalu out of stock aja gitu di toko *gila!*

me loveee it !!

this is my today's outfit. hmmmppph, better wear sheer tights, isn't it ? this one not too sheer dan membuat kaki saya nampak pendek sekali. huh.

I just cannnn't wait till next month and I'll buy my new cams. still confuse between Canon S90, Lumix LX3, or Lumix TZ7.
Both Canon and Lumix LX3 based on some website, have exact same price ! 699. darn. If only one of their price is lower I'll definitely won't too confuse. hahaha. money matters lhoo ! hahaha...

dang ! which one should I choose.
or should I go buy my very first choice ? the canon ixus ? which only cost me 350. hahaha.. :P I'm not photographer. I just love to take a pic of everything. heheh...

and this some my snaps when I enjoying Orchard. :) both using slow shutter apps from iPhone.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Happy Birthday, Me !!

I'm 20 now !

HA !
*you wish* :P

I'm 23.

Time flies ya after 20th birthday.. tsktsk. ga berasa aja tau-tau uda 23. kemana aja gue ?! hahaha.. :)

Di umur sekarang, bersyukur aja bawaannya. I have all the best thing I can get in this world, so far. :)) namapun manusia ya, ga pernah puas kan ? :)
tapi saya bersyukur Tuhan masih sayang sama saya, dikasi kerjaan yang oke, boss yang baek *walopun kadang2* :P , rumah ama housemates yang pewe abis. :)

I don't know what my life would be next year, next month, or even tomorrow. But I feel blessed because I surrounded by all the people that I love and love me dearly...

Love you ! :)

Sunday, April 4, 2010

miss him too much!

oh dear readers,
please forgive all the cheesiness lately. It's just because my boyfie will be here in the next 2 weeks, and now I'm super excited.

I miss him too much lately.
and lately he's very busy when I'm not so busy. so the only time we chat is after 9, and that's not enough ! huuuuu...

I need to wake up at 8 tomorrow. and now I'm still wide awake. duh!

5 months and still counting.

I've been with him since Halloween, so that means I've been in a relationship for 5 months !

whooaaa, for me, that's a record. haha! *dijitak*

secara gue bosenan gitu ya anaknya. dan sangatsangat mudah sekali ilfil dan sangatsangat tidak mudah untuk nggak ilfil lagi. hehehe.. so 5 months is a record. Hope it will be last for... mm, if I say forever, is it too cheesy ? well, then let me say, I hope I will be still with him for our first year anniversary. :) and after that, another year, another year, and another yearssss ahead. :)

dear bestfriend said, reading this blog lately makes her feels like she's reading my love story, but this one is really from the heart. haha! thank you. I just want to keep this feeling, so one day, if I want to look back, I still can feel what I felt before.

Happy 5 months, dear you and me. hehe.. :)


today, me and my friend off to Johor. loveeeeyy !
and I spent all my MYR there. go back to Spore with no MYR anymore. crazzzzyyshopping. haha.. :D and we definitely eat a lotssss of food. haha!

yes, we had a good time ! can't wait till next long weekend, and we'll off to Kuala Lumpuuuurr !

here's my today outfit. :)

tees : coconut island // short : kamiseta // tights : brandless
// shoes : keds // bag : longchamp

oh, here's my latest purchase. champion red canvas by keds. cost me all the shoes shopping budget for a month, but me love it !

I don't know when this is all started, but I think I have new addiction to sneakers. they're just lovely with all the cute color and nice patterns. duh, yesterday I found one sneakers with mozaic patterns in black n white. they're sooo beautiful... *sigh*
and these days the sneakers are not so boy-ish anymore ya ? just like the one that I bought, for me it's girly enough. hehhee...

I used to hate this kind of shoes. because it's too boyish. love and hate have a very thin line, huh ? :P